come one, come all, into jades wonderful world of crap!

things have been crazy here, for starters steven and i broke up a couple of weeks ago... no big deal, jus a bummer that a baby is involved :(
i am 16 weeks pregnant and still hav morning sickness but not as bad as it was, i find out in 4 weeks what sex my baby is, i hav been buying boy stuff coz i am 99% sure it'll b a boy but if its not ill jus hav to return what i hav and get pink stuff instead wont i!!
ange is coming to that ultrasound with me coz obviously steven wont b.. depending on if he grows up a lot and stops being such a coniving lying bastard he may not even b any part of this childs life.. i dont need his shit in my life and ill do what i hav to do to protect my baby from any hurt.
enough about that....
i hav been feeling the baby move a bit which is reassuring that its okay in there!
i havnt been doing much now that im up the duff, ange has a full time job now and has jus moved to lee's so i never really see her anymore. MISS YOU ANGE :(
lily is good, she is 4 now and growing up so fast.. she is the one i feel for the most when things dont work out between me and a guy, she gets so attached, but i know she knows that all she needs is me, i give her everything she needs and more love she knows what to do with!
its anges bday in a few days and this coming sat she is having a dinner at smoken joes and then going to dekota nightclub afterwards, ill go but dunno how long ill last, i can barely keep my eyes open past 9pm these days!lol
anyway i am jus plodding along, life is a bit dull at the moment but im sure that will change once i hav a screaming new born to deal with!
i spend a bit of time with my very good friend nannette and her 4 month old bub, who is my god daughter, jazzarah, i love spending time with them, net really understands how it is to b single and pregnant and how scary it can b knowing u hav to do it all alone when the bub comes.. i will b okay tho, im strong!! lol
well i mite write in here a little more often from now on.. maybe!

cya mwah

yo!

had an ultrasound today due to lower tummy pains over the last few days but apparently nothing to worry about so thats good.. am 5 weeks pregs tomoz! hooray! i am holding out till 12 weeks b4 i get excited tho coz i dont wanna b too disappointed if it doesnt go right.
steven is enjoying his new job and even tho he wont admit it he is stoked that we r having a baby, its all about baby names and telling ppl about the baby atm lol so sweet!
my fam knows now and he jus told his younger bro jack who is staying with us this weekend, everyone is okay about it, well as okay as can b anyway! at least my bro didnt beat steve up (again!!)
lily is great and looking forward to having a little bro or sis! my good friend jodie who i have known since i was 3 has jus announced she is 4 weeks preggas and what a shock she got to hear i am too, she didnt even know that i had a bf! lol coincidence i suppose but cool to have someone to share this with!
i have to have an ultrasound every 2 weeks and then at 12-14 weeks i will prolly have to have a stitch put in my cervix to keep the baby in coz of me losing my son ashton at 16 weeks in 2004 coz of an incompetent cervix. so i am shitting my pants and am finding it hard to get too excited or attatched to the baby yet.
cant believe how great steven is, we started our relationship not so good with some dramas but it feels like we have been together forever and i couldnt love him more if i tried and i know he loves me too!

anyway omg i am tired and i want pancakes! lol hi ange!! miss u!'

xox jaydus xox

found out yesterday (anges lees birthday!) that i am pregnant!

here is my baby countdown ticker thingy!





well congrats to me lol

xox jade

heya all..

iv been in horsepital :( my appendix has been playing up and i might have to get it out soon!
oooo noooo!

had some bad times with steven but i wont elaborate on that one.. all is good now tho and he has jus landed a job fencing so we will b in the money soon! yay!!

everyone is coming for drinks tonight so ill take some pix and post them tomoz..

have fun all!

xox jade

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hi

so i am mad at steven today.. sick of being told one thing then being screwed round, he is apparently at chris's place in warburton but i dont know if i particularly believe him or not, he said he would b coming home tonight but now isnt and his excuse was that he missed the last bus even tho there were 2 more buses from when i spoke to him and he told me that.. so he lied. NOT HAPPY JAN! i dunno, maybe he thinks im a nazi bitch and wouldnt let him stay there, it is true that i asked him to come home tonight coz i start a new course tomoz and wanted the moral support in the morning, i dont see why thats such a bad thing to ask but anyway.. its not like im trying to keep him home all the time its jus that he lives here now.. he makes no money coz he dont have a job at the moment so im supporting him and i jus think all his energy should b towards getting a job and contributing to the money situation and not hanging with his drop kick mate doing god knows what.. am i asking too much??

ANYWAY..... im looking forward to this sat night, im going to get absolutely smashed with ange and jess and then go to the pub and shake my ass on the dance floor.. its gonna b hell good!!
i am starting this vcal thing tomoz which is vce for young mums, lily will b going to creche 3 days which will b good for her, she loves the interaction heaps!
its her birthday soon, the 21st june and she will b 4, cant believe how fast she is growing up, feels like yesterday she was my tiny baby girl and now she has the attitude of a 16 yr old and the bossiness of well.. me!
i have no idea what i am gonna get her this yr, i am getting mum and dad to build her a dolls house out of wood from their work place and ill paint it and get some furniture and make some curtains and cool little stuff like that so i might do that and buy a few more things too. she will get spoiled no matter what!!

i really do love steven u know.. i am so scared of losing him which prolly explains my trust issues, after my last bf cheyne and how he hurt me it is going to take some time to have faith in men again, i jus hope i dont push steven away coz he is such a great guy and he makes me so bloody happy, kissing him makes me feel like i will b safe forever as long as i have him. he is the one for me so lets hope i dont fuck it up for myself... hmmmm fingers crossed!

anyway i might go get drunk on mozell sunrises coz i am feeling very depressed without my boy here :(

ciao sweeties xox jade

gday all!

steven is sick as a dog today my poor baby, we r meant to b going to his dads for a bbq tonight, its gonna b the first time i meet anyone from his family so i am excited but a bit nervous too! i hope we make it, i hope my boy feels better soon!
had jess nathan and troy stay over last night, do they ever leave u may ask.. NO.. NO they do not! lol i love em tho! lily is at mum and dads for the night and i miss her heaps already, my girl is so bloody gorgeous! its funny how she actually looks more like steven then she does me, at least if steve and i ever decide to have babies they will resemble her so thats a good thing!
i havnt been feeling too crash hot the last week, i had 3 mosell sunrises last night and i almost threw up and almost passed out in the shower.. might b a bug going around maybe.
anyway i feel like poop so i might go lay down, steve is still asleep due to the fact he didnt get to sleep till about 5am and they boys have jus gone to the shops to get chips to munch on coz they r big bong heads!

hav a lovely day dearies! xox ciao jade

hello!

this is my first ever live journal entry so forgive me if i crap on like an idiot!
my mate ange told me about this site, ange is funny i love her so much!
anyway incase ur reading this and u dont know me my name is jade and i have a beautiful almost 4yr old daughter named lily charlotte, and a spunky boyfriend named steven, i love both my babies very very muchly and they will prolly b the subject of most of my entries in here!

anyway went food shopping today, yay! lily is at creche and as steve isnt working atm he and i have been spending most days together which is nice altho i cant wait till he works and gets some money so i can spend it all! hehe
its thursday and i usually go to the west tonight (the west being the stinky little pub me and all my mates hang at coz there is no where better to go around here!) but as we r going to steves dads place on sat night we cant afford to do both, ah well!
we r waiting on some cat scan results for steven, he has had pain behind his eyes for a while and finally got it checked out, he will b fine, we all know men r hyperchondriacs!
our mates jess, nate and troy were here for a while last night, i love em all to death but gees those boys can b annoying! oh ange was here too, good ole angie! she lives like 2 doors up from me but is moving to her boyfriends place in chirnside park next weekend, ill miss putting her windscreen wipers up on her car every time i drive past hehe :) we r hoping to move that way once steve is stable in a job and we have been together a bit longer, its been like 6 weeks since we started "seeing" eachother but it seriouslt feels like we have been together forever, i am so in love with him, he makes me feel so good, i hope it lasts with him coz no man has ever treated me as good as he does, i hope i make him happy too, even if i can b a major bitch at times.. more often than not atm! ill feel better once he is working.
i start at vcal next tuesday which is a vce program for young mums thru the upper yarra community house, im looking forward to it! ill get to see my good friend jen and her little girl jasmine alot more coz she does it too.

okay well there is a million more things to write but ill save some for next time!

ciao darlings xox jade